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September 25, 2020

Dear Kip,

A few nights ago, I was teasing you about spending the night with me. (I thought that I was flirting with you, but I’m not so good at flirting so who knows how it came across?) You got a little defensive and told me that you are pulled in one hundred directions, and you then made sure to emphasize that you always make time for me. 

Kip, I need you to know that I get this, and I appreciate it.  I see you.  You are pulled from work, from family, from the community, and now from me.  I see that you want what is best for everyone around you and that you are willing to do whatever it takes for them to get the best.  I need you to know that I have never felt like you are not available to me.  Sure, I long for you at night when I am staying at home.  Of course, I miss you on the weekends when you are in Mandan, but you make time to send me texts and pictures, letting me know I am on your mind.  These things fill my bucket when we aren’t together. 

In the time you take providing for and giving to everyone else around you, I worry most about you making time for and taking care of yourself.  You haven’t for a while for sure.  Since you finished your Travelall, you have not added another project for yourself that is strictly for you.  (I hope that all the work on your house and shop will bring you joy eventually; I know it will me!)  Your kids are not wrong in trying to persuade you to take a vacation.  You give to everyone else and they know how important it is for you to give to yourself.

I want you to realize that I want to give back to you.  I want to fill your bucket and help this life be the best life for you.  No matter if that is going for a walk, learning to change tires, cleaning up your shop or yard, watching movies, cooking together, making projects, or chasing our kids, I want to do it with you.  I want you to know you can always count on me.

Love you always,

Brandy Lynne